Tuesday, December 8, 2009


Today I found out from my good friend, Facebook, that two of my "friends" announced that they were pregnant today. I have thought about babies a lot recently and this certainly didn't help. Nathan and I have decided that it is for everyone's best interest to wait until I'm finished with school to start to try and have children. But that certainly doesn't mean I don't want a baby RIGHT NOW! But then it starts me on my other train of thought. Infertility and Miscarriages. I don't know what my insides are like. I've never actually met them. And they haven't told me if they are going to be nice to me or not. That makes me nervous. Sometimes I read a blog of a friend of a friend of mines (yes...I don't actually know her...) and her struggle with infertility. And I just cry and cry. I don't even know her, for crying out loud, but I can see her pain. And I don't want that. I hope that when it comes time that I won't have to ever deal with that pain. Until then I guess I'm just going to play the waiting game.